Your Pity Partie

'What a pity'. ~ Nonna Franca

 

 

 

Just Create and Account...Ugh

The Challenger Disaster, 1986

1.) "Are you feeling suicidal or homicidal?" ~ no, but if I hear that one more millionth time from one of you all...

2.) "Why not just go into a hospital?" ~ really??!!  oh it's so safe there getting your retinas flashlight blasted with hourly continual nightly check-ins if your room mate was in cuz she tried to take herself out, and risk r@pe again and only the universe knows what else plus all these stupid vapid questions?  No Freaquing Thank You "But doctor, I can't understand the blackboard now at school, what do I do?...900 milligrams of lithium (for a 90 lb teen?)  Answer with dead eye$ that stared through me with no emotion "Go on Disability" ~Dr. Yank, 1978.  Mom & I looked at each other in disbelief...left, I discontinued use and struggled like crazy and of course never went back.

3.) "Why don't you try to take some Rx (T-Rex)"?? ~ because I don't want to feel suicidal or cr@p out any more pieces of bloody liver today thankx anyway.  Especially because I Never Want To Act Drunk, Trunkated or Stupidity Dunked again.

No One Is Illegal On Stolen Land

 

to the tunes of the ONE and ALL...'No Justice on Stolen Land':  KRS One
Tha's the Sound of the Police

Wanna laugh through some tears?  Brilliance in Youth:
Death By Firing Squad
Jesse Welles...protection all around you and all good people ours, man forever so be it and so it is (ground)
613K 3d ago youtube snapsh*t 10/16/2026 10:54

 

Wanna know what terrified me most??  my god, my god, my god.  What happened to our scary perhaps but beloved Great Aunt Rose, and then FINALLY and tragically yet again...to 
Helen Mortensen. 
https://msdiagnosed.blogspot.com/2007/04/great-aunt-althea.html
https://msdiagnosed.blogspot.com/2007/04/there-is-survivors-guilt.html

How Come I Deserve to Live In This Beautiful Sittie? (Gr33n Qu33n City 'VERM☮NT')

 Celeb...rating...after 49 years of massive spliff consumption wherever possible (exaggerating - the chronic bronchitis took a bite outta the chronic - besides the 9-5 grind) - no - continual beloved sacred mary jane medicine usage...yea I wuz 13.  Life is forcing me to yeah.  No weed for 3 years!!!  I gave myself the free gift that came with orgonite from Mitty & Oley of a copper hand made triskellion.  Lion.  LION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseEyeglasses here I in Eye will go...Bino had cokebottle glasses ... please

The Blessing/Curse of Sort Of looking like...a - What3ever - a Normi3? and Wh(i)te (1/4?...1/2?...)?

What is Non-Duality, Aaron?  Why am Eye Almost Always subject to this Confusion attempting to infiltrate (think Carlos Castaneda's amazing journey with the Yaqui Spiritual Shaman Leader) this beloved planet?

If I were ever to be in a position of authority, like a teacher perhaps, I would NEVER even THINK of flirting with ANY of my students, or other teachers for that matter.  That is me.  I would protect myself from any backlash especially with people who may be vulnerable, like me.  I would work on that.  It would be totally inappropriate in my humble opinion. Don't call me a square, prude, stupid, jerk whatever names float that sick boat.  Sticks and stones.  Women get treated different than men, and they get their backs stabbed worse, etc...  much.

I feel more comfortable with Women around.  We 'get' life.

But Men confuse me as much as I like them sometimes, in general.

I miss gay male work buddies so bad.  No tension.

If a teacher perhaps, a Man teacher were to flirt with all or most of their female students, so be it, who am I to judge someone else - absofreakinglutely nobody. 

But please...protect yourself at the very least...please...be very careful what one steps into is my only advice.  I love all my teachers.  And us students become very, very protective of our Teach overtime, especially when they are amazing, unique and majical each in their own way.  

I wanna Be very careful of people's feelings especially not maybe just reading a book by it's cover and assume that a person is perhaps. well adjusted, stable emotionally, physically, familially, historically, situationally, or otherwize.  (Yeah, I got most of my teeth except for the antique repaied root canal from that demon inept dentist in the 80s...whoops memory lane black hole let that shot go...that needs removal...I got what I paid for.) 

Oh, yeah.  Even if anyone seems like their whole soul/lives have not been one trauma after another from ... before...? birth.  And generationally.  Like, genetically specific to this beautiful blue/green/black/yellow/red/what3ver spinning top...Granny Galaxy, help me out here?  No?  Okay.

I know I have suffered from massive trauma this go round from ingestation, which I haven't really fully shaken off yet.  Truly, I don't know if I ever have the capacity to overcome.  

We shall, yes.  Huwomanity together can and will once we have to all connect psychically - they're trying to take our birthright to these abilities away from us through division, fear and chemical ... additives and pollution and mismanagement of our brother/sister Water.  What the heck am eye even hear fa?  Warrior...oh, thankx a LOT never mind 'Jane, you ignorant slut" ~ SNL first? episode of series? Jane Curtain? as a newscaster and Rosanna Rosanadana BIG HEARTS!!! 

But me?  May be better off a Lucy - a spinster for the rest of my life, a crazy cat lady type.  Too many too much together time relationships have blown up in my face.  I can't take another broken nose, nor do I ever see this shattered heart healing enough to be good for ... ?my? 'god'.  My Karma does it not deserve a good man in my life buh=buh BUT historically, so why would this change now?  I can't see it.  I don't have it.  My heart is shattered despite encompassing expanding multiverse.  Venus in Taurus exactly opposing Neptune in Scorpiorpio - squared by Aquarian Jupiter?  Wow.  I'm buffalo'ed toxic.  Nuclear.  Stay away.

I may be just pure stupidity, totally inept socially as I have isolated for my entire life except for training/school attemption/career/medical care...insta fam, etc. etc. until I moved to this area, for the first time totally alone, knowing no one local, job-and carless.  But thankful as freak that I escaped outta Dodge.  (Boondocks)  NEK Bootcamp.  Never Again.  I've Not a Freaquing Clue how ta be wit people...'cept I'm leaning and learning to grow a colder shoulder under the boulder holder torture device.  And yes, despite how I may present, I do not have a car.  Or investements, or gleefully 'hey - does anyone know of a good 'accountant?'.  Yikes.  Ouch.  Or anything like that.  Yeah, kid, I had a career once and some idiot insisted on all this bling but no, truly I am freaquing broke raising my beatiful family of twin sister - brother.  

My sore thumbs?  Stuff falling out of my hands?  'just create another account'...That's me in a nutshell.  Frustrated and angry as hell at Ma Bell?  Try now the Robotic Wallz of SHAME trying to get a Human Being Customer Service Rep on the phone theze crazy daze...

Yeah, I can lift that for you but I might bust a gut, I'm OLD now.  I feel safer alone and even happy but want that strong man shoulder to share the skeye with weekends.  So.  Confused.????????????????????????????????66 yes I YAM, sweet potatah.

 

What?  No you.  You write a book and stopp harrassing me please. 

Imposter Syndrome ☯️🐦‍⬛🧡🖤

Me?  Really?  Ok.  Bring it on.  I'm getting ready.  I wanna be a GREAT one some day like all the ones I know now.

https://tarotencyclopedia.com/the-star-tarot-card-meaning/

 

I'm so tired of this incarnation right now

But I have two beautiful baby cats and I have to keep on.  I love my studies.  I love my community now, for the first time since the 60s.  For she who bore me?  I can't even care any more.  Why should I?  She pretends but she never knew how to even close take care of herself...there's something profound missing in that translation.

Psychic...Vampirism SUX 

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